I wonder why...

Sometimes I ask myself why I make my life so (seemingly) complicated. I know that all that matters is God and living in His will. But somehow it all too often gets muddled. I forget to live in His will. I forget that He is present in everything I say, think and do. Most of the time I think it’s just plain and simple laziness – it’s easier to just limp along in life, than it is to stop everything and cry out to Him. If I am completely honest I would all too often rather watch an episode of Battlestar Galactica, that spend 45 minutes in the Word and/or prayer. Why is this? I know what I should do, yet I don’t. (I realize the similarity to Rom 7:15-16 and I am in a strange way comforted that even Paul struggled with this). The only conclusion I have come to so far is that it comes down to love. Those I truly love I want to spend as much time with as I possibly can. So therefore it seems as though I do not love God in the way I ought. What is hindering me? Why don’t I love Him as I should? Here I struggle to find answers… My sinful nature maybe?